studying all the time drive me going crazy..
i hate that...~
so, i'm trying to find something that can make me
enjoy and happier ...
i always motivated by myself...~
I sometimes find I'm drifting Through this life without effect; I often wonder if I'm truly Worth what I've been blessed. I search through days that have been hard, To try to understand, The many trials that I have known, The life that I have had. You see me in my daily grind, So confident and strong; Yet when I am alone, I question Just where I belong. I often try too hard I find, To analyze and guess, To scrutinize, investigate My life I will confess. For somewhere deeper, there must be Some meaning to this life, Some way to make a difference, Give a reason for this strife. Is there some hidden meaning? Some agenda to be found? A greater purpose waiting If I care to hang around? It teases and it taunts me, Always slightly out of sight; A hazy vision out of reach, Where darkness hides the light. I struggle to bring clarity To what awaits me there, And yet this weak illusion Always fades before my stare. It seems the harder that I try, To focus through the haze, Just serves to add more questions, Through my endless, tired gaze. Perhaps I'm trying just too hard, To understand it all, For can we ever truly know Just what we have in store? Each incident, each moment passed, Just adds upon the next, But in the end, will I find truth ... Or will I be perplexed? Perhaps I make it harder Than it has to be sometimes, But will my searching bring to me My meaning over time? Or will it leave me broken, And confused as I feel now, While questions bring no solitude, To this, my wrinkled brow. by Kit McCallum |
When you love someone so deep inside, It seems like it's so easy to hide. You've loved him for so very long, You would think he could do no wrong. Every day you would hope and pray, That he would always stay this way. He treated you like you should be treated, You thought your life was finally completed. You thought your love was growing true, And then one day it was all so blue. He started putting you down and it hurt, You thought all you were to him was dirt. He started ignoring you and you wondered why, All you wanted to do was curl up and die. You thought your relationship would never end, But that was all so fake and pretend. One night he was so sweet to you, You thought all those things were maybe untrue, Two days later he was back the same, You thought you were the one to blame. He thought the relationship was getting too serious And that you had become a little too curious. By this time you knew it wouldn't last, All the nice things he said were in the past. You thought that you would marry him some day, But this time God wanted to get his way. You wanted things back how they were before, But you knew this couldn't happen anymore. It was a Saturday night about ten o'clock, You heard the news and it wasn't a shock. You knew this was going to happen soon, As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon. |